Ultrasound
There's tons to be said about the NT screening ultrasound but I'm short on time this morning. Everything went well, I heard one of the twins' heartbeats and saw the little buggers flailing about in their little sacs. It was a bit surreal, truth be told.
When I showed the ultrasound pictures to my co-worker, she was like "Wow. This really makes it real." I replied, "It's been real for some time now..."
Work Conflict
I had a problem yesterday with a particularly prickly employee. She got in my face, spat out her piece and then turned heel and left before I could even address the issue. I'd told her that I didn't want to talk at that particular moment about five times but she followed me out of a meeting to my desk, spieling her diatribe and forcing her way into my personal space. Nevermind that I was putting on my coat the entire time and kept saying that I had to leave for an important appointment.
For once I decided not to be walked all over like that, to not be a fucking doormat. Like they say, "You can take the girl out of the South Bronx, but you can't take the South Bronx out of the girl." I went over to her desk and just laid into her about how she has no respect for anybody but herself. Unfortunately what came out was so emotional and so angry that I sputtered half of it and wound up turning heel on her and just leaving.
Of course she sent a lovely e-mail to me and my boss about my "so-called professionalism" and the emotional outburst -- excuse me, but she has LOUD arguments at least once a week that I've had to go in and break up -- and how she expect better behavior from a Vice President. I countered with a rational and calm reply, stating what I couldn't articulate previously with a not so subtle "I'm not taking your shit anymore..." at the end. I also pointed out that I don't throw my title around, and that I expect the same level of professionalism from everyone regardless of their title or age (again a not so subtle dig at her because she's constantly tossing around her "40+ years of experience"...)
So she followed up with her usual email about how my boss is an idiot (she hates him), how my team is incompetent, how she has over 40 years of experience, is perfect and makes no mistakes and -- the best one of the lot -- how she asked to be relieved of her managerial duty so she could focus on improving her area. Asked to be relieved? Wow. Is that what she tells herself so that she can sleep at night?
Where does she get off? Actually, don't tell me. I don't want to know the subway stop to delusional 'cause she clearly lives there.
I didn't bother to reply. If she asks I will simply tell her that I said what I needed to say and that I've already heard her piece... many, many, many times over. My boss was going to reply since he was incensed but my other boss and I talked him out of it. After all, it would only lead to an email war.
At any rate, there's a reason my boss hired me to be his right hand, which I'm sure she clearly doesn't see. If she thought she was getting me in trouble with her e-mail, well she best think again. People fucking applauded me for standing up to her.
Everyone's been telling me to let it go, that she's psycho and delusional, and that I'm in the right. But I'm having a real hard time letting go of this, mainly because I've swallowed too much of her shit for a year out of professionalism. But a year's worth of barely hidden insults and digs has simply been too much. I'm not going to let those go by unchallenged anymore. I can't.
I'm somewhat dreading today, but I'm just going to be me. I'll be my usual nice and courteous self and I'll talk to her when I need to. I'm not going to avoid her like I have in the past because I didn't want to get into another of her crazy circular arguments (her favorite tactic for wearing down her opponents). At the same time I'm not going to take her shit if I do need to interact with her.
Let's put it this way. There are about 40 plus people in my department who have my back.
Knitting
All my projects are being worked on, albeit slowly and somewhat piecemeal. Balsam is my main knit right now because it's perfect for the subway. However it has this one particular row that I keep messing up at the very end of the 18 row pattern repeat. I've been missing my mistake until I'm two rows past and have consequently had to rip back at least twice now. I've just made the same mistake but it's such a soothing simple knit that I don't really mind taking the time to fix things.
And lookie what I got in the mail yesterday:
And what I started last night:

It's Argosy, from the Winter 2006 Knitty. I started it last night in an attempt to move my mind away from the drama and stress. I've finished section 1 and am two rows into section 2. It's a pretty interesting knit so I have a feeling that this one will hold my attention for more than a few weeks before I get shiny nickled by something else.
By the way, did I mention that I hate knitting scarves? :)