I took a vacation from blogging. All blogging.
I was tired of my friends and family using my blogs as a way to keep tabs on me. I was tired of the pressure to write something amusing for everyone's consumption day after day after day. Of trying to update everyone about where I was with my knitting projects or writing about how my diet was going or trying to keep up with my autobiographical writing. Of trying to maintain my long antiquated code and keeping up with the design changes, fixes, and enhancements I kept meaning to add but could never seem to find the time to actually do.
But truth be told, I was tired, period.
New job. New marriage. Plans for reproduction in the works. And the busyness of everyday life. I was drained from day to day and in a funk that I couldn't get out of.
So I let my blogs die. And, guess what. It felt good to be free.
I mean, real freaking good.
No pressure to write. No unexpected emails from concerned readers asking about XYZ or whether or not I should be attempting ABC because of my anxiety. No snarky comments or battles with spammers. No emails about when I was going to get to such and such thing I had said I would fix on the blog. No nothing.
But in the back of my head there was always the niggling, "You shouldn't have quit. You're a writer, damnit!" And the "No one knows what you're knitting now." Or the "How're you going to join a knit-along without a reasonable blog presence." But mainly the question was, "How're you gonna scream aloud now? How're you gonna express yourself, girl?"
And, slowly, very slowly, I got the hankering for writing again. The hankering for sharing and posting and ranting and raving. So I'm back, but this time with only one blog that will house everything from navelgazing to knitting to health struggles to losing weight to musing about anything I care to write about. I'll write when I want to, be silent without guilt and whine if I need to -- while taking your sage advice to heart and hoping to live up to it. But most of all, I will share my mundane life, with its ups and downs, its achievements and disappointments with you.
So... I've started afresh in these new digs. No code for me to worry about so I can focus on the goodness of writing. Bare minimum design for now -- my enhancements will come, sooner I hope than later, but eventually. There's a new readership to court and old readers to hopefully win back. Friendships to kindle and all that good stuff.
And for those who like knowing about the past, archives of my old musings are sealed in amber but viewable here.
I'm back and here to stay for awhile.